mama's sweet potato pie is sustainin me @ this moment. words have escaped me. i think spirit is tryin to tell me sumthin.

i need to b silent.

i'll b back...eventually.

peace and blessings.

happy holidays e'rybody.

last nite i went to tha club and saw this brotha i know wearin one of my skullies. tha thing is, i didn't recognize it. i found myself admirin it and thinkin, "damn, that's a nice hat. whoeva made it did a good job." then he tells me it was one of mine. haha. good things r to come in '02. my main focus is to get my product out on tha street. i will b covered from head to toe in my own creations. my friends will even b covered.

i'm so happy.

bein @ work today got me in a festive mood. this afternoon, we had a building wide christmas party. ppl went from floor to floor to schmooze and mingle. it was cool. 3rd floor had snacks, 2nd-soups and salads, 1st-desserts w/ tha main course in tha conference room. i was impressed. i work w/ a lot of creative ppl. it's always nice to see folks out of their element.

so leavin work, i went to tha store and bought some christmas lites. i'm goin to string them 'round babygirl's bed. it'll b a nice lil surprise when she returns home tomorrow. i've missed her.

@ tha moment i'm takin a break from crochetin, snackin, watchin tv, and washin clothes. i'm missin him and i think i'm comin down w/ sumthin. *sigh* it's a neva ending cycle i tell ya.

happy holidays.

my grandmama's throw is finally finished. i repeat...it's finally finished! i feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. now i'm free to play w/ ideas. feelin great aight--dead prez stylee!

i'm back in full effect. had madd fun in denver. my fam is crazy. met a cool brotha that showed me 'round town. tha trip was blessed.

now i'm back. in ak. chillin. my car isn't runnin. and sumthin's goin on w/ my him. i see stress and worry in his eyes, but he doesn't wanna open up. how can u help someone if they act like they don't want it? i've been told that i'm very nurturing. does that scare men away? i find myself wantin to fix things. even when i know i can't. and would it mean a lot if i was just there to offer a shoulder to lean/cry on? i wonder. he doesn't realize how special he is. what can i do to make him see?

it feels like i've been gone longer than a week.

my template got all screwed up. i'm sleepy...bed is callin me.

inye just blessed me w/ a picture he took during my visit to seattle. i'm luvin it.

tha internet is down @ work earlier bcuz of this. workin for tha gubment is so much fun!

tha way to a man's heart...
tha cookin bug hit me. teriyaki chicken, lentils, and brown rice. oh, and cornbread. how could i forget that? i called my big strong man and told him a meal was waitin for him. he came an hour and a half lata. ate. had seconds. he kissed me and said thank u. i oiled his scalp and he fell asleep in my arms.

fuck
i am really bored. a lil stressed even. i leave for denver early sunday mornin. i thought i'd b excited 'bout it, but i really don't wanna fly. not in december and not during these times of heightened security. i don't wanna b hassled by those wannabe security ppl (lawd, don't make me go off on someone). i guess i should call and ask if i can bring my crochet hook on tha plane...that would b tha one thing to calm me. but then again, i guess i could go to cheers (where e'rybody knows ur name) and get my drink on b4 i board tha plane. that way, i'd b knocked out during tha whole flight. hmmm...

i need a new bag to carry my yarn and notions in. my cute lil yarn basket gave out on me a month ago and i've been usin plastic shoppin bags to replace it. those don't work too well tho. my knitting needles poke holes in tha sides and they stick out. i could hurt somebody or myself even. i may make one...but will i have time?

like most women, i luv m a c. while visiting my sis in atl this summer, she did that bestest thing a big sister could do. she gave me six empty mac containers. y would i want a bunch of empty containers? mac has a recycling program. bring in six empty containers and u get a free lipstick. i took my broke self to nordy's this weekend and got my free lipstick. y do tha mac girls seem so happy to get these empty containers? do they get some kind of recycling commission? or r they happy that somebody is contributing to tha preservin tha earth? i wonda.

meditation tip of tha day
In action, just act.
In thinking, just think,
but above all, cease the agitation of your mind.

Yun-men

some food for thought.

i started runnin last nite. i know, i know. pick ur jaw up from tha floor. this is a major thing for me. jackie don't run...i always said it, but i have to admit that i feel quite dandy this morn. got a lil more energy and actually made it to work on time (tha sky is goin to fall hehe). tha vision of my leaner self is beginnin to show in my head. she's still a lil fuzzy/out of focus, but she's there (she was nonexistent b4).