k, so i walk into tha magic carpet (my favorite store) and immediately see these crocheted hemp bags w/ beautiful glass bead buttons on them. awesome they were. i then see sara. tha woman who made them. awesome they were. i had my eyes on this one bag. round, multi.colored hemp, lined in fleece. awesome it was. 80 bucks. 80. i just may buy it. i know me. i will buy it. i've been amped for three days. been crochetin like crazy (still buildin inventory for tha store/trip). now i'm even more amped cuz i just got off tha phone w/ my sister. tha bug bit her durin tha christmas season and she's been makin things ever since. she's my crochet guru. she taught me how to crochet and she makes (am i repeatin myself?) tha most wonderfullest - yes, i said wonderfullest - things. awesome she is!

off to find some hemp online...

imagine...
me and u
dancin to a calypso tune
hips wind synchronized
to every melodic beat...

i thought sundays were lazy days
man, yesterday i made five hats @ my mama's. b4 dinner, after dinner b.fly was a machine. i'm payin for it now tho'. my back is a lil sore and i think i've got tennis elbow. but i'm not lettin it stop me. i've got hats to make for tha store. my wall is lookin @ lil shabby and i've got a trip to go on. gotta make that money. plus, dude is sellin some korean lady's hats too. can't help but feel competitive.

i'm comin down off of my high. b.fly collar boy came over for dinner. we ate. laid on tha floor. listened to tha sounds of fertile ground. he read my poetry. he smiled @ my poetry. he complimented me on my poetry. it was nice.

i've got a hat to finish.

tha show was awesome. i am so proud of my friends. i couldn't help but feel like i shoulda been on stage too. not me...not me w/ my shy self (lotta folks don't believe that 'bout me). it's goin to happen...one day. leavin tha cafe, i'm left w/ all sorts of feelins. b.fly collar boy is on my mind and i feel i have to make my feelins known. can't take this shit anymore. he tried takin my knitted fitted. it is quite fresh (if i may say so myself), but i knew babygirl would b upset if i gave it away. so, i'm makin him one. i made a skullie durin tha first half of tha show.......he walked away w/ that one.

ode to a butta.fly collar wearin brotha...

i`m a sucka for a man in
polyester.
buttafly collars and old school blazers
his 6`3" frame looks oh.so.fly
i will continue to lust in private.

:::

beautiful brown
nappiest of naps
verbal truths spat
from smooth dark lips
i am moved to elation
overjoyed w/ tha relation we've shared
sun/moon in constant reflection
how i've wondered
what would come next in my life
revealed was he
and all i can b
is happy
cuz his being
is refreshing
& a blessing to me
continuing on this journey
w/ anutha piece added to tha mystery
i'm free
from all insecurity
these eyes of mine r opening
to tha wonder of him
& i am appreciative of what god has put b4 me
hoping i can shed some lite on he
may we b blessed
in togetherness

...unity

*sigh*

i miss tha randomness forum.

ok, so i now know how to use tha double pointed needles. not as bad as i thought. i found tha company website that makes tha pink fuzzy yarn i luv so much. sandy, tha owner of knitting frenzy (my favorite yarn store) was makin a hat made w/ noro's silk. that stuff is awesome. it's lightweight, soft, and colorful (my favorite thing 'bout noro yarns). i've worked w/ tha kureyon. can't wait to get my hands on tha silk.

oh, my hat turned out nicely. babygirl has already claimed it. peace.

i've got oatmeal on my face. singin w/ hardening oatmeal on ur face is kinda difficult. lol yesterday, i was told i was a very sexual woman. i shared this w/ a male friend of mine and he asked if i agreed w/ tha statement. my reply: i'm more goofy than sexual. i am. ask tha kwasinator.

today i plan on makin my daily trip to tha yarn store. gotta learn how to use those double pointed needles. just when i think i've got tha hang of things, sumthin else comes along to fuck me all up. gotta finish this hat o' mine. gotta hit tha thrift stores to find an outfit for tonite's events. i'm really excited...a poetry show w/ wiz and b/fly collar boy. whew lawd! it's goin to b off tha hook. it's always nice to see him (b.fly boy) w/ his beautiful.brown self on stage doin his thing. i'll b right there drinkin a glass of wine and thinkin all sorts of nasty thangs.

got a few more pics added to tha page. i need more space.

played hookie from work. been workin on my pink fuzzy scarf all day. i'm determined to finish that sucka. nuttin much is goin on. digable planets is bumpin from tha stereo. i've got some red beans cookin in tha crockpot (i'm so luvin that thing). and i've got a certain beautiful.brown.boy on my mind. gotta work on my wears for tha dc trip. i've been bullshittin.

hung out w/ butta.fly collar boy. all we do when we're togetha is listen to music, talk 'bout what we see goin on 'round us, and smile @ each otha. he likes my feet and like tha way he looks @ me.

clem has left tha building. my apartment looks amazin. how come i wasn't blessed to have mom's organizational skills? i guess i possess it when i wanna. my crib looks so nice, i'm afraid to sit on tha couch.

i'm a sucka for boys in polyester
butta.fly collar boy was out in full effect. his presence is so damn refreshing. it's been a while since we've seen each otha, but nuttin's changed. i still got it bad. he's a sexy mofo. y does he look like bill cosby (uptown saturday nite stylee)? dude liked his hat and i got an order for a few more. *givin thanx*

gotta get some more stuff into tha store. gotta work on my display (again). gotta get ready, clem's comin over to do what she does best - clean (she's helpin me, of course).

thank god for mamas.

on my way to tha club. gotta dance my sorrows away - along w/ a couple of long islands - i won't go out anymore after tonite. gotta save my money for d.c. i managed to make one hat. hope dude likes it. shit, i hope it fits. *smile*

butta.fly out.

i've been linked! miss dangerous.chunky gave me a shout out! thanks...u're one source of creative inspiration. much luv to u.

i'm supposed to b workin on a few hats for tonite's club outting, but i just don't have tha energy. i told myself i'd make a small bag/hat set to go w/ my outfit, but...

i'll b back--arnold schwartzawhathizname stylee

my throat hurts from laughin all day. it was needed and i'm thankful. wiz and i went out for drinks after work. i luv that girl. i am so happy to have her as my friend in this corny ass city. we've been fiendin for an open mic spot. so, we decided to start one. i think we're goin to start off small first and do it @ somebody's house. we just want a place to write, discuss, share, etc. it's so hard to get tha ppl's participation out here. it's like they're mentally sleep. if it's not seen on tv, they aint doin it. oh, wait a minute. def poetry jam got e'rybody's nose open @ tha moment, we may b able to use that to our advantage. hmm...

i've been in a knitting frenzy today. gotta relieve stress. i began work on a pink fuzzy scarf (sumthin like tha pants big boi in outkast wears) and i just started playin w/ my circular needles. i'm makin a hat...a round hat. it's definitely sumthin i have to get used to. y am i so stressed? yesterday, my dog died and my him decided to end our relationship. so i'm heartbroken. wantin comfort from somebody. i need a hug fo' sho'.

loop.d.loop has inspired me. looks like i'll b makin anutha trip to tha yarn store. i need some more needles.

loop.d.loop has some very nice knitwear. check it out.

my day was spent chillin in julia's office (home of illaska.com). i had some pics to scan and some signs and letterhead to create. i made good use of my time. while workin, i got tha idea to crochet color swatches. may b helpful, may not b.

my head hurts.

after spendin most of tha day readin tha yoga journal i told myself i would pull out my yoga tape and get busy. well, my extremely happy mood turned into extreme grumpiness and i lost all motivation. pms maybe? i don't know. i'm feelin bad. maybe some sleep will help.

my first day back @ work was okay. long as usual, but okay. this evening turned out great. wiz and i visited this sis @ tha hospital. we met her back in september @ a slam and haven't seen each otha since. she cried when she saw us, cuz we were tha last two ppl she thought would come see her. she and her daughter r up here w/ no fam, so we made her day. being there w/ her made me realize that i take my relationships w/ ppl for granted. i instantly think folks will b there, when in reality they won't b. that needs to stop. it was good seein her i'm glad we could make her smile. now my lips r badly chapped and my eczema is beginning to annoy me - y now?- anywayz, i've got a hat to finish b4 goin to bed.

goodnite.

finished my scarf today. double ribbed, made w/ lion brand's homespun yarn in waterfall (which is tha 3rd one down). i'm very pleased. now i'm workin on tha hat...i hope it turns out tha way i want. a digi cam would b so useful @ this moment. *smile*

tha down side to havin a self.employed man is...i don't get many late nite cuddles. :oP y is my ass up? i've been up 'til 3am for a week now. i'm goin to b a grumpy chick come monday mawnin. i was gettin used to layin 'round in my drawls.

last nite, wiz and i celebrated my bday by goin to this new club in town. my nite was made when my boy rah popped in. HE CAN DANCE HE CAN DANCE HE CAN DANCE! that's always a plus. i smiled and laughed all nite long (don't think wiz enjoyed herself much).

i've been re.energized. i like this feelin. i really really do.

27 years on this earth and still goin strong
my birthday was cool. moms cooked dinner and baked a cake. babygirl and her great.grams gave me roses, some king crab legs, a cake that'll probably feed 20 ppl, and a george foreman grill. tha day was blessed.

still tryin to get tha hang of this knittin thing. i'm gettin better, but it takes up so much of my time. i'm used to whippin out stuff - in due time i guess. tha bizness is goin well. seems like tha onlee thing i think about these days is color schemes and future projects. so @ tha moment i'm buildin up inventory for tha store and next week i'll start work on merchandise for my trip to dc in march. i'm goin to b busy tha next couple of months.

happy friday!

my new year's celebration consists of left over chinese food, 2 rented flicks, and me drownin my sorrows in a tall glass of sprite.

happy new year e'rybody!